Hi Reader,
Whew! After a looooooooooooooooooooong break from blogging & YouTubing (yeah, I'm making that verb) at a very inopportune moment, I'm finally getting back to reality, and I'm EXCITED about diving back in again!
I couldn't find an Eminem GIF that fit, so this one of Michael Scott works. 😂 *Feelin' hot, hot, hot.* 🥁 IYKYK
Here’s what happened after I went dark last September:
I’ve been in a new season of growth this past year. And with that new phase, growing pains were kind of inevitable.
The truth is, some of my old systems don’t support this season nearly as well as they supported the last one. I tried to brute-force my way through that mismatch—like I always had—until I realized rest was nowhere to be found on the horizon. No light at the end of that tunnel, seemingly.
By early December, most of the holiday sales work was wrapped, but I was suddenly knee-deep in all the invisible prep and BTS admin work that comes with stepping away when ya don't have a team to take over: invoices, client communication, member communication, scheduling posts, blocking off calendars, & updating autoresponders…
My resting heart rate was way too high. I had to cut caffeine entirely. And somewhere in there, it finally happened:
I had burnt the fuck out. 🥵🔥
By Christmas Eve, I was physically sick. Fatigue. Foggy-brained. Coughing through every sentence. Losing my voice. Unable to sleep because lying down made the coughing worse—and still, no caffeine. (But hey, at least the headaches were gone!)
My body had had ENOUGH. 🫣
So it paused for me.
It took a few weeks to fully recover, though I felt more like myself after about a week—I just couldn’t talk. And then it seemed like everyone was catching some version of the same thing, which made me feel less alone.
Now, I’m in the reset.
I’m reorienting myself in this new phase with different intentions. My internal systems are getting an upgrade so I can support this phase of growth more sustainably—letting some things ride, putting others down for a while, and focusing on what actually matters to me this year.
My point is this:
None of us are perfect. Even after 10 years of doing this—and not having experienced burnout like this in a long time—it can still sneak up on you fast! Even when you know the signs. Because we’re carrying too much. And also, the weight of the world right now is HEAVY.
If you’re feeling that weight, you’re not battling it alone. I think we all are, on some level. And somehow, knowing that makes it a little easier to bear. 🖤
On a lighter note—and in the spirit of keeping things real—here’s a quick/fun behind-the-scenes update!
